RECKONING

RECKONING

I can’t understand how one gets to be like you
The lies and deceit you harbor
The whores and the lonely you bed with
The trials and tribulations you pretend to be burdened with

I’m your nightmare
Your rude awakening
The judge, jury and executioner that’s here to right your wrongs

I can’t believe you thought you’d get away with this
The games and pawns you played
The fakes and the jokes you clamor with
The death and destruction you say you didn’t cause

I’m your reckoning
Your burning revenge
The fire, truth and blood that’s here to reign down on you

I’ll never make sense of how you sleep at night
The cold heart and barren soul inside
The vile and untrue you seek
The mind over matter you never grasped

LOSING FAITH

LOSING FAITH

I’m sure I’m out of your mind
You’ve forgotten my name
And what we had before you smashed it in my face

You can’t see my face on the pillow next to you anymore
Can’t hear my words when you’re feeling down
Don’t want my touch when you feel alone

I’m running through these tears to get you back
Denying these facts to change your mind
Losing myself to make you whole

I’m sure you no longer reach for me in bed
You’ve forgotten what I did for you
And what we yearned for before you denied it all

You can’t destroy me no matter how hard you try
Can’t break me when you’re insecure
Don’t stand a chance when you want me gone

I’m wading through this darkness to find my light
Forgetting the past you tried to burden me with
Losing faith in you to fix myself

TIME HEALS NOTHING

TIME HEALS NOTHING

I'm on the run from the reality that is my life
I wish I could run away from everything
I need some time to think
To reflect and start over

I'm not giving in
I'm not giving up
But I am calling for a timeout

Lie to myself saying time will heal

I still think of her everyday
Used to be so happy
Was it just me?
Did she ever feel the same?

I'm out of my mind
Insane to think it would ever work out
No one wants me
No one wants her
So why are we apart?

Time has passed and I'm still not over it
Time ticks away and I still want her
Stupid to still give her a second thought
No way she feels the same
No way she still thinks of me
So why am I fixated on her?