AMUSED

AMUSED

I kept you amused while you used me
But you weren’t laughing at my jokes
You were laughing at me

I knew what you were doing
I knew you’d walk away
But I loved you anyway

All these thoughts inside my head
All the hurt in my bones
I am reborn

You kept me alive while I built you up
But I wasn’t building my home
I was tearing it down

I knew who you were
I knew you’d betray me
But I came around anyway

All that time I wasted
All that I held dear
I am new again

PITY

PITY

It's been way too long now
I still waste my time thinking of her
Will I ever get over it?
Maybe I have and just won't let go

It doesn't hurt anymore
Just makes no sense
I don't feel it anymore
Just pity her

CHEERS TO ME

CHEERS TO ME

You fucked up so many times
I forgave you every time
Cheers to me, the idiot in the room

I moved on and things got better
I bet you’re still the same
The same scared little girl
The same tool afraid of her own shadow
Insecure as the day is long

Cheers to love, it’s better to have never loved at all
I thought I’d think about you today
And wonder how many more times you’ve failed

I’m all better now
I bet you’re as happy go lucky as ever
The same slut spreading your legs all over town
The same game with a different guy
Sad and Pathetic as the day is long

You fucked up so many times
I used to hate you for it
Now I just pity you
Cheers to me, the glue to your sanity

YESTERDAY

YESTERDAY

I gave you tomorrow
But you were gone yesterday

POEM TO MYSELF

POEM TO MYSELF

I write these words to stay sane
I put this pen to paper to feel alive
I live in the past because I’m scared of the future

I’ve seen too much change
I’ve felt too much pain
I’ve been through too much hell

I’m writing this to give myself hope
I bring these thoughts to life in your heart
I live in a prison because they keep clipping my wings

I’ve heard all the rumors
I’ve seen all the blood
I’ve cauterized all the wounds

IMPOSSIBLE TO LOVE

IMPOSSIBLE TO LOVE

You're impossible to be with
It's impossible to love you
You've got nothing figured out
And everything all at once

You want everyone inside you
Then come home to me
You're impossible to make happy
It's impossible to love you