EARSHOT

EARSHOT

It's gonna catch up to you

It's a hell of a drug

Look me in the eye & make it real

Do you believe your own lies?

I've heard it all before

Found it in a Cracker Jack box

In the whore handbook

It hurts when it's true

I spoke till I was blue in the face

You never heard a word

My silence was the only thing in earshot

NO APOLOGIES

NO APOLOGIES

I'll never apologize for who I am

What I say

What I do

I'm better than you

Ten fold

Go tell your girlfriends all about it

Your version of the truth

I'll sit back & laugh at your hoax

You had fifty chances to make your case

Make me believe in fool's paradise again

Hostile and alone in my corner

Pour more vodka down my gullet

I'll make no apologies for the truth you deny

Who you are

Who I know

You're a fucking mess

Ten fold

THE WAIT

THE WAIT

They say good things come to those who wait
I've waited an eternity
So how much longer before I get mine?

That’s the sound of my soul leaving my lifeless body
Staring at the walls waiting for the Grim Reaper  to take me
It’s ok, I’m at peace with my demons

I concede the win to them
Just pretend you gave a damn in my last moment
Hold back your true self for just a second
That’s the feeling of being human

LET ME (IN YOUR HEART)

LET ME (IN YOUR HEART)

Let me in your heart
I know you’re torn apart
You don’t have to worry anymore
You’re safe with me forevermore

All you had to do was let me love you
Let me inside and ease the pain
But you wanted to say “fuck you”

I wanted to believe
But I’d have to be insane

Gave you my all
You gave me nothing in return
Loved you when I knew you’d fall

You just wanted me to burn

Let me in your heart
Now it’s too late
You don’t have to worry about my heart
Now I’ve moved on to a better fate

TAKE YOUR MEDICINE

TAKE YOUR MEDICINE

This is who you created so this is who you get
If I’m going down, I’m taking all of you with me
This is what you wanted so this is what you get

Burned me down
Down to almost nothing
But, like a phoenix, I rose
High above the bullshit

This is your reality so this is your end
If I’m moving on, I’m laughing in your face
This is what you need so this is what you deserve

Played me perfectly
Took my defenses down
And bulldozed my walls
Broke me down and watched as I fell apart

This is the new me so get the fuck out of my way
If this is the future, I’m soaking in all the power
This is what you asked for so take your medicine

INSIDE

INSIDE

You let me inside, but didn't let me inside
Your body was a weapon
My head, the target
I needed a hole in it like I needed another in my soul

Sleepless nights and endless days
No one to hold me
And no one to tell me it’s going to be ok

I went on without you
You died before we met
Maybe one day empathy will find you
For now, your heartless body wanders aimlessly

You buried me inside and wouldn’t let me go
Your selfishness was your crutch
My eyes, the tunnel vision
I need you like I needed your bullshit

SMILE INSIDE

SMILE INSIDE

I’d say I never want to see you suffer
But that would be a lie
I’d say I want you back
But that would be a lie too

Nothing was ever enough for you
You had perfection
You looked it in the face and spit

Are you satisfied now?
Did life turn out how you expected?
Of course not, karma is a drug you OD on regardless

I told you my deepest secrets
You played me like a violin
I deserved better
But you gave me your worst

I can’t believe I fell for you
But look at you now
The years haven’t been kind
And neither have the goons you left me for

I’d say I never wanted it to come to this
But I smile inside knowing I was right

WRONG

WRONG

Every decision has been wrong
Every relationship has failed
I just can’t do anything right

Lying awake every night second guessing
Trying to piece it all together
And figure out where it all went wrong

Every waking moment is a nightmare
Trying to daydream my way home
And wondering if I’ll ever even have a home