LOST IN THE CROWD

LOST IN THE CROWD

Everyone’s looking for something
But they won’t put in the work to have it

These little escapades you run with just laugh in your face
So wake up and fuck yourself
Have a cup of coffee and read the tabloids
You’re alone and going nowhere

They say we lie in the bed we make
What happens when someone else made it?

No matter what version of myself I pretend to be
I can’t get away from this rate race
I’m not chasing the same empty air they are
But they won’t let me get through the crowd

The mirror lies to us all
So smash the glass and dare seven years of bad luck
I can’t speak for you
But I’ve had my fill
I’m better off alone and going everywhere

I’D GIVE ANYTHING

I’D GIVE ANYTHING

I’d give anything to watch you suffer
Take back everything I said
Just to know you’re dying

Nothing feels as good as thinking of you defeated
Nothing can compare to watching you die inside

I wish I could go back in time
Take back the “I love you”
Just to have never met you

I’d give it all up to see watch you die
Give back every single thing
Just to feel like I won

Nothing feels as good as thinking of you dead
Nothing can compare to watching your slow demise

I’d give everything just to seek revenge

START OVER

START OVER

Maybe I’m stupid
Or maybe just a loser
Nothing works out and no one stays

Throw in the towel
Start over in another life
This one’s not for me

 

Everyone I’ve ever trusted betrayed me
I’m closed off and raw now
They said they’d be there
No one ever stays

Tired of starting over in this life
Venture everything and gain nothing
Maybe I’m doing it wrong
Or maybe I was born to lose

THE LONG WAY

THE LONG WAY

I've come a long way
And I've still got a long way to go
Through triumph and failure
I'm still pushing forward

I've survived many phonies
And I'm sure more are coming still
Through the breakdowns and breakups
I'm still better than them

I've been dismantled and reassembled
And I'm still missing a piece
Through the shadows and lies
I'll find my home

CHECKMATE

CHECKMATE

You made me feel so fucking small
Lying by your side, I prayed the pain would subside
But you kept making it worse

Then you ripped everything I loved away from me
Attached the hip yesterday
Today you couldn’t tear away fast enough

You gave me Déjà vu
Lying from your mouth, I believed every word
But you kept me hanging on

Then you hit my breaking point
Building my home around you yesterday
Today I rage at the sight of you

You forced me to take a stand
A pawn in your sick game, I took your king
Checkmate

THE SUFFERING

THE SUFFERING

Tired of feeling this pain
Tired of feeling empty
You did this, but I am the one to suffer
Just disappear, just get out of my head

I try to forget the memories
It's as if you've etched them in
Take them back, I have no use for them

Go away, far away from me
What you did makes me sick
Who you are makes me cringe

Tired of feeling for you
Tired of fooling myself
You made me this way, but you won't own it

Just disappear, just get the fuck out

I long to forget we met
It's my dying wish
Take me now so I no longer suffer