CONFUSED

CONFUSED

 

You miss me, but you don’t have to
Can’t be that confused if you still have feelings
Your own personal masochist
You’re the cause of your pain

Would love to know why you feel like you don’t deserve happiness
Maybe you just don’t want it with me
Maybe you just don’t want it at all
Either way, make up your mind

I miss you, but it doesn’t matter
Can’t be living this hell when you don’t care
My own personal Holloway
I’m the black sheep of the world

Dying to know what’s so confusing
Maybe I can help you find clarity
Maybe you are just too stubborn
Either way, make it clear to me

Missing each other, but what’s the use?
Can’t be playing games with me anymore
You’re not sure of the utopia we built
I’m not sure you’ll ever make up your mind

You must ask yourself "What kind of life do I truly want?"

OPEN YOUR EYES

OPEN YOUR EYES

I wish you’d open your eyes and realize what you’ve lost
Happiness abound and spirits of amazing once stood here
You shot them down point blank

I wonder why you took happiness for granted and flew away
Elated states of mind and visions of grandeur float around
You kidnapped my heart for ransom

I marvel at why you are confused and don’t want to be happy
Wake up and fight before it’s too late and it's lost forever
Why are you so afraid to love me?
I love you for who you are
Astonished at why you don’t believe you deserve what I gave you
This kind of love does not come to those who don’t deserve it
It never comes to anyone I don’t believe is worthy

Move through me, I’ll keep you afloat
Lean on me, I’ll hold you up
Take on me, I’ll make you whole

Will I ever see you open your eyes and realize what you’ve done?
Will I ever get answers for why you’re confused and running from nothing?
Will I ever be able to help you solve your puzzle and make you complete?

I wish for only one thing
I wish for you to come to your senses and make things right
I wish you’d open your eyes

KARMA IS COMING

KARMA IS COMING

I’d hurt myself just to make you bleed
I’d give a limb just to make you suffer
It’s time for me to let go
What we had was never real

I know you better than you do
But still don’t know what the fuck you wanted from me
I’d sacrifice myself just to make you feel the agony
I’d sell myself out just to make you pay

No more being a doormat
I won’t be taken for granted any longer
It’s time to say goodbye
What will be will come in the end

I’d stab my own back just to haunt your dreams
I’d play the martyr just to send you pain
It’s time for the truth to come out
What you made was an empty promise

SWAN SONG

SWAN SONG

This is the last thing that I write for you
I’m over it, you’d never be true
Good people don’t do the things you’ve done
It’s not a game, but you think you’ve won

Take your tiny jabs and go away
I take back my sanity today
This fresh start will bring better company
No longer can anyone deny me

No one can ever take my place
I don’t care how much time and space
All this wasted time and energy
You were never going to be with me

I hope you see your reflection in the mirror
And no longer want to be her
No longer can you make me feel like I failed
Our time and ship have sailed

THE UNREQUITED LOVE OF A NEUROTIC WOMAN

THE UNREQUITED LOVE OF A NEUROTIC WOMAN

I told you I was in love with you
And all you heard was can’t do this
I said it again, but you still heard nothing

Maybe I thought you are more than you are
Neurotic to the core is what you are
The latest in a parade of women to break my heart
Liars, cheaters, phonies and more

We’re all just checklists to you
You say you want true love and then turn it away
No matter how real or romantic we treat you
You’ll always find an excuse to break our hearts

I poured out of my heart to you
All you heard was the lies in your head
I did it again, but you still weren’t listening

Maybe I thought you’d see the light

Neurotic beyond sanity is what you are
The last in a parade of women to break my heart
So neurotic you can’t recognize what you had

BOTTLED

BOTTLED

You bottle everything every time
What are you so afraid to face?
Look where it’s gotten you

Visions of old maid
And a life of lonely
Can’t complain when you’ve only yourself to blame

You sweep it all under the rug everyday
What are you running from?
Look what you did

He lit up your world
And enriched your life
But now he’s gone

You’re too afraid to be happy
So you pretend not to care as you sabotage
Live in that bottle and run from everything
Look where it’s gotten you

Seize those that make you happy
Hold on tight and don’t let go
Look where you’d be

Stop turning away from all that’s good in this life
You only get one shot to get it right
You sacrificed everything you had
If asked why, could you answer?