ANGEL

ANGEL

You were my angel
But you saw me as Mr. Wrong
Now I’ve got another scar to hide

You made me happy too
But you didn’t care
Now I’ve got a new hole in my heart

I should’ve seen it coming
Everyone abandons me
Tears have run dry
Patience has worn thin
Hope has died

You lit up my world
But you couldn’t light the way
Now I’m driving all night to find you

I should’ve stayed away
Everything I do is wrong
Words cannot explain
Feelings unrequited
In my dying arms, you were my angel

SOUVENIR (OF A LIFE THAT NEVER WAS)

SOUVENIR (OF A LIFE THAT NEVER WAS)

I drink from this glass
A souvenir of a life that never was
Memories made and hopes dashed

Nothing in this life is guaranteed
Promises made, promises broken
Plans made, plans never laid

I drink from this glass
A souvenir of a life that never was
Memories revisited and expectations not met

No one in my life is permanent
Promises made, promises broken
Plans made, plans never laid

I drink from this glass
A souvenir of a life that never was
Hoping you right your wrongs and come back to get me

HAPPY NOW?

HAPPY NOW?

You say I make you happy
Then you walk away from me
Turned your back on happiness

I wanted to give you the world
Be your shoulder to cry on
Your statue to lean on
Dare I say, knight in shining armor

Life's hard enough as it is
Why extinguish the stars that shine for you?
Life's an impossible game
When you walk the winding road alone

You say I make you happy
Then you tell me goodbye
Tell me, are you happy now?

FAKE IT

FAKE IT

The more I wanted you, the more you faked it
The more I tried, you more you pulled away
You shoved me out the door without thinking twice

The way you laid your head in my lap
The way you’d look at me with those bedroom eyes
The way you’d turn your hips
It replays in my mind on a loop

The more I tried to be there for you, the more you pushed me away
The more I did for you, the more you took for granted
You let your past ruin what we built

The way you talk so innocently
The way you play coy with me
The way you let it all go when we closed the door
It replays in my mind on a loop

The more I wanted you, the more you led me on
The more I wanted you, the more you faked it

(I’M NOT) WHAT YOU WANT

(I’M NOT) WHAT YOU WANT

I would’ve followed you anywhere
Made sure no one ever hurt you
Taken away your pain and dried your tears

But that’s not what you want
So go chase the bad boys
Stay stuck in reverse
You reap what you sow

I wanted to make you mine
Made sure you knew how special you are
Taken you to heights you never imagined

But that’s not what you need
So go pretend I’m the problem
Stay in your bubble
You reap what you sow

I was about to take it up a notch
Make you smile as wide as the sun
Take your past and make it disappear
But I’m not what you want

I FELL AGAIN

I FELL AGAIN

I fell again
Too bad for me that I do it hard and fast
Always end up hurt in the end

This time I saw it coming
But as I watched that shoe drop
It still stomped me out

You’re not ready for real life
Adulthood is too much for you
You’re so far away in lala land

I’d try to fight for you
Too bad it’s a fruitless endeavor
Always rejecting my advances

Now I watch you walk away
But as I watch that splendor fade
It still hurts to my core

You’re not ready for a blessing like me
Happily ever after is too much for you
You’re still so far away in lala land

Now every time I think you
I fall again
You’ll never know just how good you had it
Just how badly I wanted you

THE INVISIBLE MAN

THE INVISIBLE MAN

I know you’re gone
Not sure why I expected you to stay
No one ever does

I should know better by now
But I still hope
Hope that, one day, someone will reciprocate my feelings

No one ever will

We made plans for tomorrow and beyond
I guess you can insert anyone in my place
I’m just a guy
The invisible man

I know you never cared
Not even a tiny bit
No one ever does

I should stop feeling anything
But I’d be numb
Can’t let, not even for one day, monsters like you win
No one ever should

I’m just a disgusting asshole
I guess it really wasn’t in jest
I’m just a guy
The invisible man

DON’T MISTAKE MY SWEETNESS FOR WEAKNESS

DON’T MISTAKE MY SWEETNESS FOR WEAKNESS

Here today
Gone tomorrow
Made a hasty exit with an untruth

Time to grow up, little girl
I’ve been here before
I see right through you
Your deceits don’t work on me

You don’t respect me enough to be honest
Don’t mistake my sweetness for weakness
You’ll die with the lie
Because it’s easier than facing your demons

Here yesterday
Gone today
Made a hasty exit in the dark of night